i know its been awhile
been working overtime the past few weeks
i'm feelin it just like everyone
i know i should feel lucky
i have a job
pretty much get one anywhere anytime
i have friends that have lost jobs
or like my sister quit one
i recently bought a sunday paper just to look
for jobs and coupons
it didn't have shit

as for traveling
well i signed up for classes
i did my two years in trauma surgical icu
i learned
i did
i made mistakes
i feel like a nurse practioner telling these young residents what to do
i feel like a crna pushing drugs to patients while doing surgical procedures
i fckin do it for 12 hours while wiping ass for cash
but am i gettin paid like them
hell n o
so i'm going back to school
i'm tired
its stressful
and i don't wanna be there for ten years or more like my coworkers
i'm ready for 2009
start fresh
make a change
ready to change
get my shit together
my year for accomplishments
i realized that i'm never gonna get my dream house
dream car
ect...with an extra income from a husband
so i gotta get off that crazy notion and go back
to remembering to be that single independant women i was
really not lookin forward to chrismas
seriously gonna be 15 to ten bucks or less on everyone
gotta get my baking skills in order
i'm sorry i'm tired i worked the past two nights
was on call last night
and got called into work while watchin the best movie ever
The Fall