Mr. Big and Jason

"I have a lifetime of regret sitting on my shoulders."
Reality Bites

I realized I have a Mr. Big in my life...Just like Carrie's Mr. Big from Sex and the City. Just like Lauren from the Hills there is a Jason. Except Mr. Big and Jason are one person. No matter what I give into him. He knows how to push my buttons...He can make me crazy one minute and within a heartbeat I'm laughing my ass off...He knows everything about me...My likes, my hates, things I fear, I am vulnerable around him. I give in. and When he does have me he doesn't ask what I want or like he just does it... He's been hurt by me to much...yet he can make me feel like i'm in outerspace...I was doing pretty good...than his JOY pager went off to let him know that she is living life to the fullest with good company...suddenly somehow we are talkin again...picking up from where we left off...like nothing happened...now i'm back in it...this fckin rollercoaster....