I passed out last nite at my moms house while I was studying to renew my ACLS today. I woke up at 4am and got ready to go back to the condo to start studying. I noticed my sister was in my old bedroom sleeping while my cousins were in the living room. I walked outside and usually put my hand onmy old window to put my slippers on. I noticed the screen gone! I was like oh hell nah! I went to my car and I saw my lil sis's boyfriends car in the driveway! I went inside and knocked ok banged on the door. She opened the door and she just had her tank top on and her underwear and he had no shirt on! Then I just saw red! Like Uma in Kill Bill. I went crazy! My mom just left yesterday for a few days for vacation!

Here is my dilemma. She's 17 just graduated and is turning 18 in three weeks. When I was 17 I was waaaaaay worse! While going crazy I thought first of all I would've put the screen back, second of all I wouldn let my man park in front of the house ect...I got caught sneakin out with a guy I guess when I was 15. It was 5am and I was smoking a Newport 100 chillin with Adge AND then my dad walked out cause he heard us laughing!!! Then the second time I got caught was in high school. I came home at 530 am and my window was shut and all the lights in the house were on. I was sooo faded to. I remember just hearing my parents but not hearing them I just wanted to sleep it all away. So there it is. My sister is not a bad person. She doesn't do the things I did when I was younger. She didnt skip 3 months of school, fail 11th grade, missed her court date at 16, have her mom find a pipe and a gladlock bag full of green in her purse at 14, and find empty beer bottles in her closet like me...I could go on and on and on on all the shit I did and put my parents through.
So when i reacted the way I did I felt bad. I usually get quiet and think and then say something. usually...Now though its like frustrating...just frustrating...and she's kinda the reason I really dont want kids...cause its times like these.... I'm so confused I don't know how to feel cause I feel like worse things could be happening I guess and I should be thankful...