Yesterday was beautiful.
I stayed in my living room studying.
I stared outside half of the time wishing I was at the beach.
I got scolded by my preceptor Friday for working overtime on my old floor.
He said I should be studying.
So I had in my mind to study the whole weekend.
Even though its spring break for everyone and I know the beaches would be happening.
I took a break yesterday with David.
We ate sushi at my spot in Riverside.
Watched dirty south people wearing blue tooth bumpin Chris Brown
while fishin on the St. Johns River in Memorial Park.
Walked through 5 points.
My favorite store is closing!!!!
The cool toy store!!!
This Friday its closing.
Everything is 40% off.
I'm sad.
I buy gifts there for people.
I stayed home while everyone was gettin their drink on at the Ritz.
Memae ran into one of my bambis.
So when Monday comes during rounds he can't joke around with me about being happy at the Ritz in front of my preceptor.
I feel like I'm in nursing school again.
Everyone says I am.
I hate this sometimes.

My preceptor keeps giving me this scenario:

Its you, the patient, the respiratory therapist and the tech in an elevator.
The monitor shows this heart rhythm what are you going to do.
There's are the things I guessed.

Start CPR
No Joy you have to direct the code

Tell the tech to start CPR
Ok Joy and then

Tell the respiratory therapist to start bagging.
Ok Joy what else

by then I'm sweating all over the place thinkin of the next answer
Call the doctor?
Joy your in the elevator you can't

Whats the rhythm Joy what's it telling you
Its V-Tach
Okay Joy what do you do

Start ACLS?
Okay Joy go on

I wanted to cry after that because I didn't know
I don't remember
He said Joy this happend to me I was by myself no one there to help me
The two people with you dont know your the Critical Care Nurse
He was disappointed with me he told me I need to study hard core this weekend

I wonder if I'm the only having a hard time with all this new information.
It seems everyone in the program isn't getting grilled like this.
They seem to be chillin.
I hate feeling incompetant.
I hate it.
Hence staying in and studying my ass off this weekend.
Seriously after all this shit is done in June.
I see a cruise in site.
I truly need to celebrate after I graduate in June.
Off to pilates.
bah

Oh I can't wait till Saturday.
Memaes wedding!
OG reunion