so weird for the past four years i had the hardest time hearing slow songs
i somehow lost my extensive collection of r&b slow songs
i'm sure i blogged this before
but seriously since 2004 i couldn't hear a slow song
everytime it was on the radio i would have to change the station
unless it was a bling bling r&b slow song
i could tolerate it
but like brian mcknight
i freakin love him
it was hard for me to listen to a whole cd of his old songs
or musiq who i also love
i always had to change the station
so i guess i must be over whatever i was over
i'm back to listening and singing all my slow jams in the jeep
screaming at the top of my lungs
sleeping to slow songs
which i use to do religiously
especially if it was toni braxton
or the waiting to exhale cd

i can't believe memae is coming back for the weekend
four weeks past so freakin fast
maybe cause ive been keeping myself busy with work
and someone else has been taking up my time
: )
i'm just taking it day by day with everything
work, family, friends ect...
not expecting to much i guess
i am mad at my sister
its gonna be awhile before i can talk to her
she decided not to go to school
and do some pyramid scheme
fckin primerica
thats such bullshit
all my time in helping raise her
advising her
money spent
my heart and soul
and she decides to do this

and my father
getting his 24 year old wife fckin pregnant
its just a lot right now for me to take in

maybe i am ignoring it but
i am taking it in bit by bit

i thought i was gonna have a freakin breakdown
but i decided to just let it go

so my tat is gonna be pretty huge i think
i was trying to get some questions answered by my mom but she doesn't really know jack
about my family

my uncle in the philippines i remember was telling me but we had to go somewhere
then the following week we were there he past away
my mom doesn't even know what her grandparents did for a living
anyways looks like this project will take awhile
i wanna make sure i get all the right answers
so when my tat is made up
it will truly mean something
i dont know to much about where i came from
i dont know anything about my grandparents except my grandma
i guess it makes me feel like i'm a part of something bigger when i learn about my family
ok im rambling
if your reading this still i cant believe it
time to sleep
last night was pretty hectic at work
it was a full moon
so you know whats up